The announcement, a tsunami ...
It is in a context of intense, daily headaches, and on which the conventional analgesics have no efficiency that I see myself prescribing a brain MRI exam.
I don't like to get into an elevator ... I even hate this MRI tunnel!
I have a headache, I have the impression that she will implode.
The exam is finished, I go down, staggering.
The radiologist will receive me, I'm waiting ... She takes me into a small office.
"There is no sclerosis injury in plates (it was one of the tracks advanced by my
doctor) your brain is fine, you have a beautiful brain"…. Then the silence ... a sequel?
Yes I feel that there is a sequel ... Good news "My brain is fine and it is beautiful" bad news? ...
"We have fortuitously discovered a meningiom"
what?
“A benign tumor”
benign? THAT'S TO SAY ?
“It is not smart, not cancerous”
I have the right to a small explanation on the meninges.
"It evolves very slowly, we watch and if you agree we will see each other in six months for a check while waiting for you to see a neurosurgeon".
I go out and a gesture of compassion, the radiologist accompanies me to the door ... "Don't worry, it does not matter and if you want you can take the plane".

I go back through the secretariat for the last papers then I go out in the parking lot and head for my car, while having this sentence that turns in a loop in my mind “I have a
tumor in my head, but it does not matter, it is benign and I can take the plane“….
I choke, I can't breathe anymore ...
But mess, I don't have to know that I can fly. I never take the plane ... Damn I have a tumor in my head!
A tsunami ...
this is the only word that best suits what I felt the days that followed ...
An immense, brutal, unpredictable, murderous wave ...
I drank the broth!
For several days I stayed ... I can't find the words ... inert? Paralyzed?
Unable to think, to think, to act.
A tsunami! The only thing I see in front of me is this huge wave without limits.

Corinne

Corinne